7/8/2003 10:01:09 AM|||Ellen|||ennui ("�n-'wE) noun : a feeling of weariness and dissatisfaction

I've had a bit of a block lately (not that you can tell from my useless rambles about TV or eBay) about blogging. This being my platform for self expression, I've started a bunch of posts and not completed them and compose things in my head and then decide it's not worth printing.

So instead of existing in my head and creating all these expectations, thought I'd just finish the posts I have and be done with it.

Something that's been gnawing in the back of my head is that I'm doing things that I don't really care about instead of focusing on the things that I do care about .... then again, I'm quite satisfied doing as little as possible. I think I'm just hanging out right now. The good thing is I don't beat myself up too much about it. Hence the state of ennui. Kinda dis-satisfied, but not enough to do anything about it.......

I think I'm driving Bob insane though. Can't help it, he's home all week on vacation from work, dealing with me, laundry, and the great wilderness known as our backyard. One would think that one would be nice. But he is a convenient target, for my erratical mood swings. And I've now discovered the ability to cry on command. Whoahhhhh! This is a good one.

Why does it make me happy to drive him nuts? Ai ya ...... Hon, if you're reading this, sorry. And uhhh, there's still a load in the dryer (LOL)|||105768366979366914|||WED, 7/2/03 - ENNUI ELLEN