aberrant | undulating | relative

I know that I shall meet my fate
Somewhere among the clouds above:
Those that I fight I do not hate,
Those that I guard I do not love:
My country is Kiltartan Cross,
My countrymen Kiltartan’s poor,
No likely end could bring them loss
Or leave them happier than before.
Nor law, nor duty bade me fight,
Nor public men, nor cheering crowds,
A lonely impulse of delight
Drove to this tumult in the clouds;
I balanced all, brought all to mind,
The years to come seemed waste of breath,
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.

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so here is what i have eaten today:

• 2 little burritos - 300 cals each
• 1 handful of TJs spiced stoneground tortilla chips - 140 cals
• diet 7up - 0 cals

ok so for the dinner we/I did like

• 2 slices of meat loaf from boston market (leftovers) - 510 cals
• plus a scoop of steamed white rice - 100 cals
• diet A&W - 0 cals
• ooh and 2 tagalongs - 150 cals ( for the 2)

total calories = 600 + 140 + 510 + 100 + 150 = 1500

exercise done to offset this feasting

40 mins of yoga (for weightloss)
child wrangling

hmm . . . I feel like if I was just smarter with my choices i could do better

Friday March 25 2005 a day that will forever live in infamy, da da duh duuuuuh!
tegan and sara at the independent
the ditty bops open. Never seent them before; listened to a couple of songs online they sound cool, I wonder how it is live though, I mean cause like some people don’t translate noworries with t&s though. seent a couple videos of them on UGO not sure how underground the site is (underground online) coek sponsored music site. I know I speeled it wrong but I am not gonna fix it due to the fact that I think underground is being ill-utilized like extreme. anyway some nice acoustic videos of the girls up plus an interview; where they reveal that:

• they are sisters
• have never been in relationship with each other (sick fuck)
• that they are cute perhaps unconventionally but nonetheless
• which is T, which is S

so chris got the tix hopefully its not flake city anymore for him, also welcome back to LU from the underside of the world, Australia;
had lunch with her yesterday at A.G. Ferrari, I mean it was good. I had a turkey sandwich on some very savory bread which ryan and I shared with much effort. he wanted to touch all the pretty bottles of olive oil. As I was trying to listen to Lu’s tales from down under he was clawing, slapping, and generally harassing me on my shoulder to the dismay of the employees of said franchise. they didn’t have my salame choice Hot Salametti Secchi but had a rather close (same brand) alternative, Hot Salame from Molinari. also i almost took out ell tonight, she was sneaking around the room like any respectable insomniac that loves their husband would do. So, she tripped over one of Ryan’s toys and skittered and before she knew it I flashed out of the bed and beyond human speed was on her. And she screamed it’s me it’s me. And then I woke up. I wasn’t dreaming, I was asleep, I was in full on autoprotect mode; I don’t even think I touched the floor. It was like the old channel 26 kung fu movies where I flew through the air landed in front of her in some weird attack stance. Well, i didn’t attack but it was funny later and we both marveled at the great tension of the moment, i couldn’t sleep for a couple of hours. neither of us actually. well i would say lets meet up at the show but it’s sold out.


haircut momma for LU who asked to see a pic!
this was a massive effort that required coordiantation, deception, and two haircutters playing off each other. more to come on this . . .

your man in amsterdam

Violet Beauregarde: [while sticking her finger up her nose & digging] . Spitting’s a nasty habit.
Willy Wonka: [Glaring at her] I know a worse one.

One thing about me and vic; there is never a lack of philosophical discussion. We both hold strong opinions on the world and America and (I think) are comfortable sharing with each other, some insights recently acquired
and hard fought beliefs we’ve been able to shed.
It was a nice cartharsis for myself to be able to download to someone who is part of my life but not involved in the everyday minutae. I did miss the pau though and often found myself staring at children taking mental stock of whether it was ok for me to be away from him for so long. Answer=yes. Reason=don’t want little man to be unnaturally clingy to 1 person