orlando in pictures in pics.
yups we went to orlando. here is an exhaustive 2 part photo essay which i will caption later. but were back and i am sure ellen will write about the trip soon
click here for volume 2
ok its weird its like . . .
i found this tape from when i bought a camera.
a mini dv cam. i had tapes of al in his first year.
me and ell in the house from long time ago.
me and rudy driving around talking on camera.
ok
1. i am a dick
2. rudy is a really nice guy
3. no scrubs is a good song even if i sing it
4. alex looked a lot like ryan when he was young.
5. i’m a jerk
6. quoting the state is only funny to 3 people
7. greg and piia’s wedding was nice.
8. aaron is a hecka stoopid
9. ish is timeless
10. girls with tongue piercing are ridiculously interesting . . .
stelllaaaaa!!!!
i will be getting on a plane during this shooooow!!!
Rudy LU!
go see it for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this saturday!!!!
so i know there are a lot of things i should tell you but first is that d-nasty is hecka funny the monday and friday entries are ridiculous but in a cool way. second the pics thing on the side is better now. it was sick for a while, not that you would notice.?! thirdly ry is doing good and kristi and johnny are still waiting as far as i know. fourth ryan is eating rice cereal now for a couple of weeks. i posted a pic up of him doing so. more later, hey holla. okaaaaay!
I have, like many of my friends and family, been under a lot of strain. Mostly work stuff, some family stuff, and just general sense of burden and struggle. Don’t get me wrong, my stress and struggle is not life threatening stuff - and I have family and friends going through very serious things like that - this is just smaller everyday stuff …..
But for all things great and small, you really can’t beat the Lord. (I know, hokey as it sounds, it’s works for me….)
I think if you know anything about our story, you know He comes exactly when you need him. For big things, like marriage and healthy children, and for “little” things like a free fridge, a fire, and a desperately needed new transmission.
So today, after being overwhelmed by my job stuff, an upcoming work related trip. possibly extending to visit a favorite Aunt with my “boys - Big Bob and Baby Bob (no I don’t really call Ryan that), etc. etc. etc. I am eating the dregs of my lunchtime-don’t-wanna-go-to the cafeteria, eat what’s in your desk drawer - crackers, cereal and applesauce …. and thinking I can’t do this. My brain simply won’t function anymore to make any more decisions (see the last post) And then I remembered this simple motivational website (see link), and felt a nagging sense that I should look at it again.
And BAM! God meets you where you’re at, and hands you what you need…… If only you reach out for Him.
Here’s the link and text:
http://www.gospelcom.net/rbc/utmost/
April 13
What To Do When Your Burden Is Overwhelming
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Cast your burden on the Lord . . .
?Psalm 55:22
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We must recognize the difference between burdens that are right for us to bear and burdens that are wrong. We should never bear the burdens of sin or doubt, but there are some burdens placed on us by God which He does not intend to lift off. God wants us to roll them back on Him?to literally “cast your burden,” which He has given you, “on the Lord . . . .” If we set out to serve God and do His work but get out of touch with Him, the sense of responsibility we feel will be overwhelming and defeating. But if we will only roll back on God the burdens He has placed on us, He will take away that immense feeling of responsibility, replacing it with an awareness and understanding of Himself and His presence.
Many servants set out to serve God with great courage and with the right motives. But with no intimate fellowship with Jesus Christ, they are soon defeated. They do not know what to do with their burden, and it produces weariness in their lives. Others will see this and say, “What a sad end to something that had such a great beginning!”
“Cast your burden on the Lord . . . .” You have been bearing it all, but you need to deliberately place one end on God?s shoulder. “. . . the government will be upon His shoulder” ( Isaiah 9:6 ). Commit to God whatever burden He has placed on you. Don?t just cast it aside, but put it over onto Him and place yourself there with it. You will see that your burden is then lightened by the sense of companionship. But you should never try to separate yourself from your burden.
Oh, yeah.
Alright.
Somebody’s Heine’ is crowdin’ my icebox.
Somebody’s cold one is givin’ me chills.
Guess I’ll just close my eyes.
Oh, yeah.
Alright.
Feels good… inside.
Flip on the tele’.
Wrestle with Jimmy.
Something is bubbling
Behind my back.
The bottle is ready to blow.
[chorus]
Say it ain’t so.
Your drug is a heartbreaker.
Say it ain’t so.
My love is a life taker.
I can’t confront you.
I never could do
That which might hurt you.
So try and be cool
When I say
This way is a waterslide away from me that takes you further everyday.
So be cool.
[chorus]
Dear Daddy,
I write you in spite of years of silence.
You’ve cleaned up, found Jesus, things are good oh so I hear.
This bottle of Steven’s awakens ancient feelings.
Like father, step-father, the son is drowning in the flood.
Yeah… yeah, yeah… yeah, yeah…
this was from a while ago ….. last week maybe …..
As a multi-tasking mommy (not to mention, wife, sibling, friend, grandchild, in-law, daughter, woman) there are always choices or decisions or actions to make/take …..
- Do I blow dry my hair this morning or spend an extra 10 minutes cuddled up with the kid?
- Should I pick up chinese after work or can we eat canned/frozen food again?
- Do you think anyone will notice I’m wearing the exact same outfit as last Monday (it’s Thursday)?
- Should I answer that call or let it go to voicemail?
- If I eat the last tagalong girl scout cookie, who really gets hurt?
And then there’s the tough questions (though the cookie one deserves some serious consideration) like Did I really need to say that? Is that really up to me? Am I actually in charge of that? Why did I/didn’t I do that?
It’s like this nonstop barrage of things to do. I read an article (yep, another one) that said that people (well okay, I’m sure it said WOMEN as it was most likely a woman’s magazine) have to make somewhere in the range of over a thousand decisions a day. Think about it. What time to get up, when to get ready, what to eat for breakfast, whether you put gas in the car or not, if you should stop at the gas station or can squeak by on the gas you have, buy or make your lunch, where is your purse/wallet/keys/phone - and you haven’t even left the house yet.
But a lot of these things, though you do make a choice/decision/action, you don’t really think about - it’s just part of a routine you’ve been doing in some fashion forever.
These choices and choosings multiply exponentially when you have a child. Then it’s like all of that stuff - did you do/what did you decide - stuff becomes concrete. Because it impacts not just you - and hey if you screw up a decision, or forget something, you can go with the flow - but it impacts your kid in a myriad of ways. So then we (or maybe it’s just me) get locked into this mode of always being “on”. You have to look at every decision, ponder every perspective and then think what if this, then this, then this and what about that.
Does it necessarily get you the best decision? Sometimes, but I would hazard a guess that all it really does in the end is make you tired.
Last night, after spending the weekend stymied as to how to get my house in any kind of order, and doing more stewing and being pissed off about it than actually doing stuff, I found myself unable to “turn off” Two Cran-Cherry Cosmo’s later and a fab dinner of fresh-off-the grill steaks by my honey, I couldn’t relax or stop thinking to save my life. Finally, I plopped the kid on my shoulder and we laid on the couch and didn’t move until both of us passed out in oblivion.
Funny enough, someone just walked into my cubey and we chatted about always having a choice ….
Anyway, there’s still the big questions, the ones that circle in your head over and over again and you’re never quite sure that you made a good choice or that truly you had a choice in what you chose. Make sense?? So in my winding way, I’m thinking about the choices we make, and how to make better ones, and how sometimes the best choice is the one you’ve already made.
And PS - When you have to ask yourself if you should say that thing you are thinking - DON’T ….. a freebie from me to you, and yet another sorry to my hubby.
LN